Fears

I'm in the third trimester of pregnancy now, which means I'm almost there, and I am nervous about giving birth... Should I try to give birth without painless drug? But it's a crazy idea because I won't be able to handle the pain. But, I have whole lot of concerns... But! It's gonna be extremely painful! better to have an epidural... Or can I ask for an episiotomy? I don't want my birth wound tear apart to anus >_<

Although I've observed vaginal and C-section delivery and helped take care of numerous postpartum women, I still have lots of worries even some worries that I shouldn't have, such as " Am I going to produce enough milk?" Gosh! I've told my patients thousands of times not worry about this, because newborn babies don't need that much milk in the first few days, just keep feeding babies to create demand, your breasts will produce more milk supply. But when things come to yourself, you just can not handle them easily like this way. I am worried!! Sigh... I hope this is so called mood swing... I need to tell myself to relax and start to think like a professional. No big deal! Everything will be just fine! Hopefully...

One more thing! Today is our eight-year anniversary! My husband and I have been together for eight years since 2003. Congratulations! We passed "the seven year itch". :D